Friday, February 17, 2012

what a beaut.

This is the weekend we are talking about here.
Last weekend that is (this one too, hopefully)

Friday night was talent night!
Parker, Romas, Brooke, Sydney, Devin, Leslie, Sara and I all went to
Woo. The girl that played August Rush style guitar won.
If you don't know what I'm talking about, you must watch this; AMAZING.

After the show was over, we all headed back to Parker and Romas's house and had a
slumber partyyyy!
Oh, and watched 300 and laughed the night away.

Sat around all day saturday watching the boys play battlefield until we decided to go to Staples and Walmart.
What do people need when they go to Walmart, you ask?
Nerf guns, that's what.
So yep. There goes another three hours of your life. 
After that it was decided unanimously that a trip to St. George was in order.
After moseying on down there and stopping by a quick wedding reception, we all headed over to Devin's girlfriends house.

Have you ever heard of Reverse Charades? Well you should.
It's like regular charades, but everyone on the team acts out the clue while one person guesses instead of the other way around.
It makes for a knee slapping good time.

For reals.

Uh yeah, so that was my weekend.

Also, my valentine's day was good. Spent it with Romas, Parker, Sara, Leslie and Sydney playing catch phrase, watching napoleon dynamite and engaging in more nerf gun wars.

and Jared is coming this weekend so it's bound to be yet another action packed weekend!

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

hermit crabs

So, I have to do a project for Ecology.
Actually, I'm supposed to be writing my proposal right now.
Procrastination at it's best.

I'm going to tell you my plan.
Thanks to youtube I found that:
if you place a hermit crab with too small of a shell with one that has a good sized shell...

omg. i'm so excited.
so yeah, needless to say my partner and I are sticking crabs together and watching them fight.

in the name of science of course.
Enjoy the video :) 


I wasn't expecting this, but...
I think I'm crushing.

And yet,
I'm terrified to do anything about it.
What happens if they don't feel the same way?
Is it worth it to ruin our friendship?

My mind tells me no.
But my heart tells me it could all be worth it.
What to do, what to do.

Monday, February 6, 2012


So, VALENTINE'S DAY, the ever dreaded day is coming up. 
Do I have a valentine? NOPE. 
Do I care? Slightly, but for our purposes let's go with no.

My grammy sent me THE cutest package today,  I just love her so much.
 Expect a cute little picture of our decorated house shortly :)

Anyway, I got a little sidetracked there. Boys. What to say.

As I tell my best friend every time she asks, my love life is what you would call invisible.
Partly, this is my fault, but I can't be blamed for it all right?
There has to be someone out there for me. 
Maybe they're too afraid to say anything, or maybe I just haven't met them yet but someday it'll happen.

I long for the day when I can look back and see all the cute pictures of people in love and realize that those people are actually me. 
Until then, I'll wait patiently. 
At least as patiently as any girl can. 

Happy almost valentine's day lovers!

Thursday, February 2, 2012

i want out

I want out of Cedar City so bad. Really bad. I can't really pinpoint if I just don't like the education I'm getting or the city itself, or maybe neither and I'm just really homesick, but I'm tired of it here. I think the main reason is the last one. Living 640 miles from home is great...until you want to go home. Especially when you want to go home but are broke and have no car. I miss home, a lot.

I miss my family and my best friends, both the one in Colorado and the one all the way in South Carolina. I really wish I could just be there to help them through some of the tough times they're facing currently as me being so far away is really only making things worse. I would love to just be able to see them and my family on a regular basis, even if only just once a month. That's better than the once every four months at a minimum I'm getting now. But for some reason, I can't bring myself to transfer to a school in Colorado.

It's not just the hassle, although that may have something to do with it. I really feel like there's a reason I ended up here in Southern Utah for my schooling. I've made some really great friends since I've been down here, and without these people, I don't think I would still be here. So thank you, my friends, for being there for me, cheering me on and cheering me up when I need it: you will always be remembered and have a fond place in my heart.

The other day I was walking to school and the sunrise was beautiful, so I took a picture.

If I had been anywhere else, I never would have been awake or taken the time to appreciate the beautiful things that God allows us to see each and every day. For that, I am thankful for this place.

Cedar City has brought me back to my religion, closer to God than I ever have been before. It has taught me patience, perseverance, and dedication to the things that I believe in. I have overcome disappointment, failure, and most of all lost friendships.

It's been a long journey and I still have a ways to go, but from now on I will focus on the positives more than the negatives and make the my last year and a half in this state my best...I hope. :)

Friday, January 27, 2012


So I've been in a little bit of a funk lately and I'm not quite sure I can explain why but I'm sure going to try. I'm not happy, I'm not sad, I've just been kind of blah. 

You see, all growing up I've had what people would call the "perfect" life. Besides having to move across the country twice, and my parents divorcing when I was two, nothing big has ever happened to me. I'm extremely grateful for this amazing life and if given the option I would probably choose to live this life over and over again. It's great, but there's one little problem...

I've never really had to overcome any obstacles.

Is that a good thing? I personally don't think it is. Your trials and tribulations are what shape your life and if you've never had this troubles, how are you supposed to learn from your mistakes or become stronger.

Don't get me wrong, I seriously am so grateful for my friends, family, and the life I've lead. But why me? Why do others have to face such serious issues and overcome great obstacles in their life, often more than one at a time while I sit here with nothing to worry about except what to study for my quiz the next day. 

The most traumatic thing in my life recently? I lost control of my car on black ice, leading me to roll and total my car. What happened to me? I got one single, quarter sized yellow bruise on my chest from the seatbelt that went away after a week and a knot/bruised bone in my foot. I thank God everyday that I'm alive and I was so lucky that day to be wearing my seatbelt and be able to walk away from something that could have easily killed me. But seriously? Why was I the one chosen to survive with no injuries while children and adults all around the world in the same exact circumstances die every day?

What about me is so special?

I don't know. 

One day maybe I'll find out why God has been so generous to me, but I will never understand why God puts other great people in such horrible situations. 

And that's why I'm blah. Call me crazy, but I'm just really confused by this.